i love having space

I need a place where I can go where I can whisper what I know
I love having this little url on the web where I can say it right
I don't have to be careful at all I can just speak my heart. :)

Being apart from someone you adore is grieving to your soul.
It's not a BAD thing or a SAD thing, just something...hard.
When all I really want to do is just see her smile or listen to her speak
and all I really can do is just think and think, but not too much
I don't want to molest the dream by obsessing about it.
So I try to dip my thought just enough to soil the edges. :)

Grief stems from real love for someone or something.

How do I feel you ask?

grief. simply. grief.

I am in love with a girl named kate.
OH when i hear the name!
my heart gets all filled up with butterflies
and my lungs forget to move.

she is leaving soon
for a century
but 4 months is a good time to be apart.

I hope it works out ya know.
I really like this one.
I am taking it slow.
but Peter must have his adventures!

that old clock ticks
i wish it could speak
i'd ask it what will happen
with kate.

sigh....

returned.

with honor.

now back to write.

typing and tapping my heart to this screen.

*sigh*

it's good to be back.



ps, i think i'm in love. :)

sick

ache
cough
sniffle

hot
cold
shaky

sleep?
nope.
crap



man i wish i wasn't sick.

away

Thoughts incubate our dreams, you are my happy thought
with a little fairy dust i've learned to fly
given by the one you have to clap for or she'll die.
And so believe and you'll be where you need to be
i wouldn't mind if it was next to me.

Love bridges two hearts across a river that seems impossible to gap
distance makes it hard to maintain but i would work til the end of my days
to build my bridge toward your heart just tell me where to start

chorus.

cuz true love is dreaming
true love is being
true love is giving
true love is freeing

She makes me wonder why a twitter pated smile
a blushful giggle girl you're so inspired
i try, to love
i do, to live
she makes me hap hap happy so i do a little jig
but most of why i love you it is this
you make me better than i am so i dream big.

I see your acts and stand in awe, i hear you voice and die
they say cambells chicken noodle is good for the soul i would have to say they're wrong
because you my darling are the sure best thing for any soul and any qualm

chorus.

i closed my eyes that's when i saw my dream has been here all along
one night i dreamed of you
i knew everything was true
no more flu no more blues is it true
I'M SO IN LOVE WITH YOU!

chorus.

:)

Catch a Falling Star

One of the most Under Rated songs ever written, Catch a Falling Star. What ever happened to good music. And the importance of lyrics? Let me Break it down....

Catch a Falling Star

( In Grease during the first Olympics there was a sport called catching a falling star, where one would jump off a platform opponent as his team mate passed him a Ball... Very Symbolic)

Put it in your Pocket

( This is obviously hinting toward Relegion and the values (star) that you need to grasp and " Put in your Pocket")

Save it for a Rainy Day

( This is pointing out the importance of saving money and being thrifty which is very important to the U.S. today, Which is what the Rainy Day stands for... The economy.)

And the whole point of putting the song in rounds ( which is music Genius) is most importantly showing our needs to be different and stand out.

It is important that we remember to sing this song at least 4 times a day. Or whenever a good group of friends come along. No messing around. Love you

Chase Ramsey

i live

yes you thought i was dead.

but i live.

love eric

aka 

peter pan

(now a word from Chase)

merry

inspiration comes
when the seasons right

for some the holidays are frequent
for others, inspiration is light

but being merry
can be here
constant
always
full of cheer

the holidays really are for us
to bring us closer to loved ones

to sing noel
and silent night
and think about
the true Light

it's Christmas time
'the happiest season of all'

time when the world falls in love
and songs you hear really do bring good cheer

time to think
about why we celebrate
the birth
the day
the reason why we wait

time to give more than to receive
and to count, our endless blessings

to shop today
and give tomorrow
to fill with joy
and not with sorrow

this season what will you give?
will it be love? will it be gifts?
maybe you'll choose to give of possessions
unwanted toys or old concessions
maybe you'll choose to give of your time
to help wrap presents or to help find.

but choose to give.

if you don't have money
if you don't have time
give of yourself
this Christmas time

for that is why we celebrate
and sing and laugh and contemplate

it is His life we reflect on today
remember Him, His life, the way
as you celebrate this Christmas day

Answer.

Why thank you for asking wall post Sunday November 30.

Yes it is.

For whatever reason or rhythm or rhyme.

Yes it is.


Yes I am.

Just because I choose to be.


YAY!!

Question.

are you happy?

is it worth it?




...

:)

God rest ye merry gentleman let nothing you dismay,



Remember Christ our Savior was born on Christmas day,



To save us all from Satan's power when we had gone astray,


Otidings of comfort and joy,


comfort and joy,


O tidings of comfort and joy.

blinded

last night i cried
not because i was bleeding
but because i was broken

i've lived a full life
at least 19 years so far
but i've got a long ways to go


a lot more mistakes
a lot more victories
a lot more memories,

last night i cried.
because i miss people.
i long for them to be back

i miss my Grandma
i miss Kaylie Jean
i miss being with my brothers
i miss Rom and Ev and Corey
i miss Dan
i miss Vocal Point
i missed out on a lot of things
but, i don't regret

i couldn't see most of the time
i always wanted to do do do
when i needed to think think think

now i'm here crying still
wishing to do it right
to try it again
to see if i can't win
but then again

they've all moved on
i'm here,
waiting
missing

my tears block out words
and thoughts and light

i'm blinded and i'm sorry i didn't do it all right.



but life isn't about where you've been!!!!
it's about where you're going!!!
my direction now is straight
it is simple
yet next to impossible
that is why i am on this road now
because the past is what we use to better

the future

fate hope dreams inspiration
words thoughts beings aspirations
these are what life is about

joy laughter looks glances
moments times touches
this is what life is about

'was blind but now i see'

RAWWRRRR

i have not written in a while.

these are my thoughts as of now.



WOW!

that was quick.

really?

GO COUGS!!!!

ahh, that was swick.

music keeps me alive

prayer works

i love music

come on!

Ray Charles


ok.


good night

giving thanks

i don't give enough credit to others. so this blog is to thank all those that have touched me in my life, who have been the 'gardeners of my flower patch' if you will. :)

thank you to all of my friends who have helped me through a hard time, with either a crying shoulder, a firm hand, a gentle caress, or with just encouragement to get me through, thank you:

Julie Garbutt
Corey Mann
Kevin Holcombe
Romney Olsen
Evan Monson
Daniel Crowder
Ariel Johnson
Michael, Scott, and Alan (My brothers)
Amy Sackett
My Parents of course
Kaylie Hancock
Preston Smith
Jessica Leavitt
Jacob Swain
Jason Dodge
Julia McDougal
Elijah Thomas
Chase Ramsey

to all my friends who have been there to laugh at my really stupid jokes and put up with me through thick and thin, who have been there to laugh and make memories with. thank you:

Daniel Crowder
Revacoso Boys (Corey, Skyler, Evan, Jeffy, Romney)
Julie Garbutt
The girls of 304 (Kaylie, Kendra, Katie, Brooke)
Kevin Holcombe
Acting Up Boys especially Chase, Elijah, Ethan, Darren, and Sam
Preston Smith
Chris Grosbeck
Jake Swain
Jake Mortenson
The girls of 63 (Becky, Lana, Hillary, Paige, Lauren)
Ryan Cope
Kristin Latimer
Jessica Leavitt
Laura Dyer
Bryant Shultz
K.C.T.
The girls of 121 (Julia, Elisa, Melissa, Savannah, Nalani)
The Men of Vocal Point! (James, Ariel, Scott, Ben, Micah, Buck, Paul, Chase, JJ)
Wes Henry
Lex Hatch
Whitney Overman
Monique Shurtz
Britney Carlson
Xandra Peterson
Camille Whitacre
Henry Unga
Mallory Keith

and to those that have, in meeting them, created a new world that would never have been discovered had it not been for them. thank you:

Kaylie Jean Hancock
Daniel Crowder
Julie Garbutt
Julia McDougal
Whitney Overman
Ariel Johnson
Kevin Holcombe
Jessica Leavitt
Romney Olsen

you are so wonderful friends! even if none of you ever read this i hope you know how much i care about you!!!! that's not to mention the countless others who have touched my life. thank you thank you for putting up with me with all my shortcomings and fallouts, and for accepting me for who i am. :) i love you all thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much. :)


thank you. :)

Ben Folds = . . .

Stunning!
AMAZING!!
THE BEST !!!

people you seriously don't even know. Ben Folds was amazing. it's late and i'll write more tomorrow but really, holy crap.



ps, he signed my t shirt.
yeah ben folds.
the real guy.
o my.
sigh. . . .

moments

moments are what make up our memories.
reflecting, but not looking back is what we need to do.
this moment will never come again.
there's another moment gone
and another
and, you get the idea. ha!
i just love moments.

how to capture a moment? i don't know, you just do. things happen and you remember. some you want to forget, some you want to re-live and others you just have to have them. but what's the purpose for it all? i don't know....



i also like writing when it doesn't make a lot of sense and you just write whatever comes out of your mind. i miss you. i miss a lot of you's actually. i miss friends that kick me into shape and make me happy. that's what memories are for, for me at least, to help me reflect and do something more with my life. hmmmm...


well that's all i have. hope you are having a great day Eric, I say this because i think i'm mostly the only one who reads this, but i don't mind, just remember what sparked this moment.

sigh.

love.

goodbye America

Obama won.


:(

empty as a drum

i love music, and drums, now i get how it feels to be that empty space being continually beat upon to be a part of something better than itself.

the drums are the heart of a band.

i'm not sure if i have a point to this story because i'm still trying to find one myself. but i guess being empty can still be a good thing. right?


devastating blows to the top of the drum
make music outside creating conundrum
but no one sees the inside of the drum
where the heart loudly cries for someone to come
the musics to loud
empty is the drum
the drum is heart
the music is what makes it beat
can anyone see?


empty as a drum. except my nose is full of snot.

temporary relief

today i had one of those moments of fleeting respite. slight comfort from a deep, healing scar. it was nice. too short, but satisfying. today i had one of those 'movie moments' that you always hope will happen but never do, except it totally did and it was magnificent! sigh...


now my insides are churning; two possible reasons, and i don't think that it was the peach yogurt.

o boy.

i'm left waiting

there are no ordinary moments
everything has it's reason and rhyme
thoughts are what incubate our dreams
i'll wait for those dreams

there are no ordinary moments
every person has their place
finding where your puzzle piece fits;
to discover this, i'll wait

there are no ordinary moments
every movement holds a treasure
buried deep or shallow we still all hunt
buried treasure? i can wait

there are no ordinary moments
a glance can mean a thousand things
love, hope, fear, or questions

i don't want to wait anymore


i want to be out in the field
want to become much better
all i can do for now is kneel
to free me from these fetters
i want to serve and grow and learn
receive and write some letters
but i will wait
i want to find someone to love
to hold and cherish tender
want to become a hero to
my children more than ever
i want something that i can't have
a world that i can't love
but she'll be here when i get back
this love i'll love forever
i can wait for that
i want to be more than myself
beyond what man can handle
to build a scope of breathing life
where only one can hold a candle
to travel at the speed of thought
much faster than us mammals
this i will wait for too


see there are no ordinary moments
though some may still contend
still there are no ordinary moments
we share with family and friends
there are no ordinary moments
none
noda
zip



for these moments i will wait for you
whomever you may be
i'll wait through wind and hail and rain
just you wait and see
i'll become that best that i can be
so maybe you'll agree
when i kneel down and ask you this,
'will you marry me?' :)
for this moment i'll endure
all hellish situations
of loves refrain and much more pain
i'll somehow wait

to share and to create

these not so ordinary moments

*with my eternal mate
that we'll leave up to fate
o, they will be great
i will somehow wait

*these are four alternate endings. :) you choose which one you think fits best i guess.

love love!