i'm left waiting

there are no ordinary moments
everything has it's reason and rhyme
thoughts are what incubate our dreams
i'll wait for those dreams

there are no ordinary moments
every person has their place
finding where your puzzle piece fits;
to discover this, i'll wait

there are no ordinary moments
every movement holds a treasure
buried deep or shallow we still all hunt
buried treasure? i can wait

there are no ordinary moments
a glance can mean a thousand things
love, hope, fear, or questions

i don't want to wait anymore


i want to be out in the field
want to become much better
all i can do for now is kneel
to free me from these fetters
i want to serve and grow and learn
receive and write some letters
but i will wait
i want to find someone to love
to hold and cherish tender
want to become a hero to
my children more than ever
i want something that i can't have
a world that i can't love
but she'll be here when i get back
this love i'll love forever
i can wait for that
i want to be more than myself
beyond what man can handle
to build a scope of breathing life
where only one can hold a candle
to travel at the speed of thought
much faster than us mammals
this i will wait for too


see there are no ordinary moments
though some may still contend
still there are no ordinary moments
we share with family and friends
there are no ordinary moments
none
noda
zip



for these moments i will wait for you
whomever you may be
i'll wait through wind and hail and rain
just you wait and see
i'll become that best that i can be
so maybe you'll agree
when i kneel down and ask you this,
'will you marry me?' :)
for this moment i'll endure
all hellish situations
of loves refrain and much more pain
i'll somehow wait

to share and to create

these not so ordinary moments

*with my eternal mate
that we'll leave up to fate
o, they will be great
i will somehow wait

*these are four alternate endings. :) you choose which one you think fits best i guess.

love love!

Charlie Brown

Just the coolest.


Ever.

music music music!

i love music so much!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!




thank you.

we hit a deer

i have secretly had a dark desire to hit a deer while driving in a car.

it happened.


i was sad.



but then was like DUDE! AHHHHH!!!! COOOLLL!!! hat me if you must, but it was one of those things that just doesn't happen to people you know. i'm glad nothing happened to the car and the deer got up and briskly jumped away, so everything is still cool between me and nature. :)


thank you kevin and daddy holcombe for taking me golfing and for letting me fulfill this secret desire of mine. i now want no more to do with deer's and the hitting thereof.

Parting is all we know of heaven and all we need to know of hell. ~Emily Dickinson, "Parting"

playlist

Let me preface this by saying that music is a big indicator of my mood, and it really affects how I feel.


k, so i was driving today i noticed that all the songs that were coming on fit my mood exactly and then dictated how I felt. . .if that makes sense. Anyways it was so profound to how i'm feeling right now that I wrote all of them down. This is on shuffle out of 3467 songs:

Stardust - Michael Buble......i kinda cheated on this one cuz i picked it but it set the tone if you will. ha!
Sunshine = Love - Eric Sackett
What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts
Someday - John Legend
It Had to Be You - Frank Sinatra
A Kiss to Build A Dream On - Louis Armstrong
I'd Give You the Moon - Jake Coco
Call Me Irresponsible - Michael Buble
Sweetest Goodbye - Maroon Five
My Life - Billy Joel
Lost - Michael Buble
Tell Her About It - Billy Joel
Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon Five
Nothing Lasts Forever - Maroon Five
He Don't Love You Like I Love You - Daniel Beddingfield
Color Spectrum Song - Disney


anyways, i thought it was very poignant and melancholy, but also cheerful and nostalgic (ps i would have never known that word if it hadn't been for kaylie hancock and brooke beecher thanks girls :)) it was just super uper crazy and totally legit, somewhat ridiculous how close it was to how i currently feel. wow. well hugz and kisses world can't wait to see what comes next.

ps i truly love music and cannot wait to record my CD next week woot woot! :)

the past little while...

Eric Sackett
Student Development 110
Journal #3

Well my life saga continues as I pursue to get a degree here a BYU. It has been a rough couple of weeks for me, as well as everyone else I’m sure. There has also been a lot of good that has gone on amidst all of the turmoil, I got to go on a cruise, I’ve reconnected with a lot of old friends, and I’ve learned priceless lessons I’ll carry with me as long as I shall live.
One of these lessons is the importance of holding my tongue, Proverbs 29:11 states; “A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepeth it in till afterwards.” This is something I do not do nearly enough of. I’ve always been one to speak my mind and let people know how I feel about things, after all I am a very extroverted person ☺, but lately, I’ve learned that refraining from speech is sometimes more powerful that uttering well though out words. There is a reason for everything. That is a fact no one can dispute, because having no purpose in something is still a reason of doing something. I’ve learned that being humble and patient through trails offers happy results, and jumping to conclusions injures and angers. If you haven’t found this out already I’m the former part of that scripture above, I tend to jump to conclusions and hurt the dearest of friends as well as other people I’ve barely met, although I won’t apologize for showing feeling I need to work on mediation in expressing my emotions.
Speaking of emotions, I tend to get really emotional at not so very emotional things, for example, on the plane back from Florida (coming back from my ever so delightful cruise) there was an in-flight movie. It was ‘Cinderella Man’. It really made me want to be the best dad in the whole wide world. The main character, James J. Braddock was a big fighter before the depression and once the economy dropped out, so did he. It’s a story of the struggle he has trying to provide for his family and stay alive, it is inspiring story, and for me one that shows the real love of a father, and the lengths that he goes to make sure his family is safe and warm and fed. I cried through most of it. I’m emotional, but I’m so excited to be a Dad.
Parents. Tough to deal with as a teenager, move out, that is the best solution in my mind. Parents always want the best for their kids and they sometimes tend to show it with a lot of negative reinforcement. Not in every situation mind you, but in my case, my parents tend to show their loves in different ways then flowers and WAY TO GO stickers. They always expect the best out of me, which they should, the way I go about handling it sometimes is juvenile. But I’m learning to cope with is, and that is what it is important.
I’m learning that the most important things in life aren’t things, they are people, and maintaining friendships and trust between others we interact with. This class has made me organize my life a lot, and think more about where my focus is being put. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how the best thing that I can do to get over my problems is to serve others and stop thinking about myself and how hard everything is for me right now and everything going wrong in my life. There is always someone worse off.
Things can always get worse. But they’re more likely to get better. ☺