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Have you seen the new Batman? (The Dark Knight) Christian Bale and Heath Ledger give a performance that is absolutely stunning, but I've just been thinking about the character two-face played by Aaron Eckhardt. It's interesting to watch how people act around different people, I'm not excluding myself from this post, but why can't we just be ourselves? What is that drive in us that makes us want to be different then who we were made to be?

Acceptance?
Validation?
Approval?

Why can't people just be who they say they are? This thought was provoked just by observing others and how they react to different people, how they 'rehearse' their lines to people and act out emotions. I don't like two-faced people. More so, I don't like that I sometimes am guilty of this trait I loathe. Two-faced.

I also wish people could just be honest with how they feel. To quote Relient K; 'I better rest my eyes cuz I'm growing weary of this point you've been trying to make, so rather then imply why don't you just verbalize all the things that you're trying to say? How things could turn out so well, but I'm beginning to see instead it's trouble. Into a pattern we fell of prolonging the inevitable. Why don't you, come right out and say it? Even if the words are probably gonna hurt I'd rather have the truth then something insincere. Why don't you come right out and say it? What it is you're thinking cuz I'm thinking it's not what I want to hear.' I wish people would be honest. Now don't get me wrong, there is a difference between honesty and being blunt. There is always good, better, and best way to go about telling how you feel, but at least say it. John Mayer would add this:

Have no fear
For giving in
Have no fear
For giving over
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much
Then never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open... wide...

Say what you need to say
Say what you need to
Say what you need to
Say what you need to say...

'Listen silver, speak gold' - someone I can't remember. :)


You know that feeling when you are so happy and so miserable at the same time? Where you notice every tree and every flower, and every smile and every frown? Do you ever feel alone but your convinced that everyone is watching you're every move, like the Truman show? Questions and answers. That is how we live our lives. It's always about trying to find out the answer. What is that answer? If love is the answer, could you rephrase the question?. . . hmmm. Life is a fickle thing. You go to smell the roses and grab a thorn. But it's worth it, right?

i sure do hope so.
that's all.
:)


DISCLAIMER: I REALLY AM A HAPPY PERSON I PROMISE :) I JUST LIKE TO THINK A LOT ABOUT REALLY RANDOM STUFF. I'M NOT TRYING TO BE NEGATIVE ALL THE TIME HA! I LOVE LIFE! :)

Good Sabbath.

Today was a really good Sunday, and it's not even over yet! Today we had a testimony meeting and it was incredible. Then I got to listen to my Sunday school teacher, he is totally a Mormon Sean Connery, and that was fabulous. And to top it off we had a great uplifting message in Priest's Quorum, although I am an Elder now. It was just an edifying day and we still have 11 more hours to go. YAHOO!

O, and I got a calling, possibly the coolest calling ever to be called upon....drum roll please.....

SENIOR PRIMARY CHORISTER

HA! How spectacular can it get! :)

'Life's journey is not traveled on a freeway devoid of obstacles, pitfalls, and snares. Rather it is a pathway marked by forks and turnings. Decisions are constantly before us. To make them wisely, courage is needed. The courage to say no, the courage to say yes. Decisions determine destiny. The cost of courage constantly comes to each of us. It comes to each of us. It has ever been so, and so shall it ever be.'
-President Thomas S. Monson-

Picnic.

What a glorious day for a picnic, thought I.
So I went on one.
And this is what it was like...

Katie - 'O my gosh Kaylie, that was the dumbest joke ever.'

Kaylie - 'No way! It's hilarious! Come on guys! K let me tell you another one to redeem myself..' (she repeats this at least 7 times whilst Brooke just gives that look of 'people please, this is the most ridiculous joke ever, do not let her tell it')

Kendra - 'No Kaylie, in her ever so sweet voice, please tell me! I really want to hear it.'

Eric - 'This probably would be funny if I was tired' ... ps ... i wasn't

Kaylie then starts into her next joke, Brooke grumbles, Kendra applauds, Eric listens, and Katie tries to listen with an un-bias ear, for moments earlier Katie and Kaylie fought over how much they used to love each other and blah blah blah...

5 min later...

....and inside the clam', Kaylie recites, 'there was a doughnut.'

there is silence.

Then all at once the protests filled the air...

SO DUMB!!!
See I told you guys.
COME ON IT'S FUNNY!!!
It was alright.
Stupidest joke ever.
O my rash.
Seriously guys.

Moral of story. Do not let Kaylie Hancock tell you jokes unless you are tired.

Then we all just enjoyed each others company and laughed and took pictures and played football, it was really fun. Picnics are just glorious because there's no telling what may ensue! Thanks girls for going on a picnic with me today, it was just delectable. :) Let's do it again sometime.

Sidenote: that would be really cool if no one read this cuz then iwould really just be talking to my self. which is awesome. especially cuz it's not even out loud. it's all in my head. ahh...sigh...
nature is so beautiful! i'm glad i have great friends to share it with.

hopeless romantic

ok.
so now that that's out.. :)

I AM A HOPELESS ROMANTIC! let me explain...




So, today in class (class being the class I teach at the Scera theater), there was a scene acted out from the play Aladdin, also a famous Disney movie (in case you didn't know). It was the one where Aladdin goes to see Jasmine and try and win her heart. Well, he fumbles over his words and does a horrible job at wooing this ever so beautiful lady because he is trying to be Prince Ali Ababua, it is not until he is himself that she starts to listen. Aladdin, now being Aladdin, tells the Princess how he really feels about being trapped in life and blah blah blah, but this gets her attention. He then asks. 'Do you trust me?'She hesitantly responds, 'Yes. . .Then the lovers go on a magic carpet ride to a whole new world. Cheesy? Yes. Adorable? Absolutely. People, I got chills and butterflies and all that stuff. I know, I'm ridiculous. But I can't help it.

I LOVE IT! Here are a few other favorites. :)

Beauty and the Beast, what are the odds she would kiss him and change him to a human, seriously, so cute.

Now Peter Pan has a different kind of romance. These two lovers, though they never ended up together, still shared a deep friendship. They had commitment issues, but when they kiss on the pirate ship after the great battle between Peter and Hook, I was done for.

Mrs. Darcy... COME ON!!!

Yup.

You remember this one?

Have you seen this? It's just great.

Herc was head over heels for Meg, so in love, yet they couldn't be together, until the end! AHHHHHHHHH!!! :) GREAT!

Am I right? K, and the episode that was on today, yeah the one where they met halfway and Jim proposed.... sigh.... in the rain.

'Here's to lookin' at you kid', (that's for you)

sigh...

... :)

right now

Man, life is so hard. Question, have you ever felt so good about something or so uplifted by someone or so excited about life? Like one time there was this PC game that I wanted to purchase, I felt SO good about buying it. It was 20 dollars, and at the time it was the coolest thing in the world, but when I got home to play it, it lost it's savor very quickly. I felt good about getting it, I got it, and hated it. But have you ever felt good about something and had to get rid of it or leave it in the 'dreams' section of your mind? And it just makes you sad that you ever had to lose it? That's hard. You can have a million people tell you it will be alright and that everything will work out, but it's still so hard.

I know it all will work out and that everything happens for a reason and that our voyage through life needs storms and waves so we can learn how to steer our vessel, but isn't it nice to have anchors along the way? Doesn't it seem like when you feel you're ready to leave the harbor, and you get out on the vast ocean that the your universe sometimes crumbles? Well I did.

So I'm writing it down. So it no longer gets to fester inside my head.

Did you know that a plane is never headed in the right direction, but always lands at it's predetermined destination? The pilot has to make constant changes and course corrections in order for the aircraft to arrive where it has designed to go.

hmm.

Right now I'm studying in the Library, but right now my mind is flying away to a happier place and a happier time.

But no one can stay there too long, we all have to grow up someday right?
I say no.
But so many say yes.
So for now I will be grown up and face my storms.


right now, life is hard

happyness :]

this is a song that I learned to play and sing once.




i think we worry too much about us, you me and yourself
we seem to worry so much that leave our smiles upon the shelf
i think it's time that we find ourselves in this crazy upside down world
using our lips to tell the world and smiling with them up-curled

happyness is not so hard to find
happyness is learning to be kind
happyness is not so hard to do
happyness is waiting there for you

when you learn to smile.

learn to smile through the hard times and laugh through the pain
find joy in the little things like, summertime rain
don't be sad because it's over, but be happy cuz it happened
and, don't let life get you down cuz life is bound to happen!


happyness is not so hard to find
happyness is way deep down inside
happyness is not so hard to do
happyness is waiting there for you

when you learn to smile.

and if friends disappoint you and plans go astray and if nothing seems to work out in just the right way.
if you feel you have failed in achieving your goal, that life's wrongly placed you in an unfitting role.
when you feel a smile begin don't let it fade don't leave it undetected
let's start an *epidemic quick and get the world infected!

happyness is not so hard to find
happyness is way deep down inside
happyness is not so hard to do
happyness is waiting there for you

when you learn to smile.
so smile. :)

just once.

being born

growing up

passing on

everything else can happen again.

what will you choose to repeat?


Life is something that everyone should try at least once.
Henry J. Tillman

:)